Rest – the Dawn is Near; the Sun is Rising
… or what activities he would be involved with. I often wonder about what kind of kid Jake would be. Then I ask myself who would I be if Jake were still here with us on earth? I am sure other trials and heartbreak would have led me to a closer walk with the Lord but I know for certain that I would not have seen God’s saving light so brightly had it not been so dark. As the darkness lifted by His light, I began to respond like Job, claiming that “no purpose of His can be thwarted.”
When we know this, that our purpose is to see and know God, we move from a place of wanting to know “why” to wanting to know “who.” Jesus. Then we will know that Jesus, without a doubt, is more than enough for anything we might ever encounter.
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| Kasey Ewing |
Yes, it is a fight that must be fought alone; no one can do it for us. We will have to continue wrestling until the break of eternity. We must keep fighting until He shines His final light on our dark places. In the end, when our tragedy did not trump us, when we stood firm, and we cried out, “I won’t let go until you bless this mess!”, not only will we truly see God but others will see God in us.
Yes, I walk with a slight limp now, but I continue walking with Him. Yes, I had heard of him by the hearing of the ears, but now I see God. Now, “I look at the world through tears. But I will see things that dry-eyed I could not see.”(My paraphrase of Nicholas Wolterstorff “Lament for A Son.”)
Don’t stop now; don’t give up. When it feels as if the tears have so blurred your vision you can’t take another step, keep walking with Him. Keep wrestling.
The dawn is near; the sun is rising, and soon you will see things about Him you could not have possibly seen before. Before too long, you will learn and know that everything you have ever learned about our precious LORD is absolutely true and even more real than you ever knew.
This story hits so close to home for me right now, as I just recently suffered a miscarriage. It has led me to have some very serious anxiety which, in turn, has caused me to question everything about myself, as a mom, as a wife, and even as a woman. I appreciate the candidness of your thoughts about believing God with your eyes and not just by hearing it. Thank you for this!
Makes me think of scripture “…weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning.” I read a quote the other day, “A major part of hope is….waiting.”
Great post!
Your message was like a love letter sent to me from God.You have blessed my Spirit with your divine words from God. Thank you for being willing to be Gods messenger.
It doesn’t seem to matter how hard things are right now, there are always those precious people who have gone through much worse. Thank you for sharing your story and for the encouragement to “keep walking” even if it is with a limp.
We experienced this very recently when my sweet father-in-law went HOME. Our grief was tempered by the powerful, peaceful presence of the Savior. We experienced Him in a way only grief allows us to see Him. God is loving and compassionate, and we are so thankful that He reveals Himself even more clearly through the tears. Thanks for sharing and encouraging so many to TRUST even when life is hard. GOD BLESS YOU!! <3
So often we don’t see a purpose for the trials we go through. The outcome is not always seen…or ever seen… Several years ago my husband and I went through a trial in our church family. We grew through it and our church grew through it. He said he never wanted to go through this but he wouldn’t trade it for the world. It was used by God to bring some to salvation. I love your ‘Keep Wrestling’ comment.
Blessings!