“In Dependence” Day
“I can do it myself!” While of course it is physically impossible, I would not doubt that those were the words I exclaimed as the doctor delivered me from my mother’s womb. A spirit of independence characterized most of my life, from a strong-willed child to a self-reliant adult. Definitions of the word “independent” include “not subject to control by others” and “not requiring or relying on something else.” I always took pride in the fact that I could do most things myself, not requiring or asking for help from anyone.
When I became a Christian at thirty-two years of age, I carried that independent spirit right along with me on my spiritual journey. I did what I thought was necessary to become a more mature Christian. In my typical fashion, however, I did it on my own and became frustrated at the lack of satisfaction I was experiencing. While I was the epitome of the “good” Christian, teaching the Bible, leading women’s ministry, and even being a pastor’s wife, I was spiritually empty and extremely discouraged.
What was wrong? Had I not done everything I should have done? I knew something was lacking, so I became more serious about growing in my relationship with the Lord and sought Him more earnestly. I was astounded as He revealed to me that the secret to spiritual success was not independence. It was actually just the opposite: total surrender of my self-sufficiency and total dependence upon His almighty sufficiency. While giving up control was a new thing for me to do, it was the best decision I could have ever made. I experience more freedom and joy than I ever thought possible as I let go of the exhausting ways of the past and rely on the ways of God.
God has redefined the word “independence” for me. It now means “in dependence” upon Him. Every day is now my “In Dependence” Day!
Father, help me this day to be “in dependence” upon You. Please never let me forget what an awesome privilege it is to have You plan not only the details of my day, but of my whole life. May every day be my “in dependence” day! Amen.